talk abt weird

In June I am going to be maid-of-honor at my seventeen year old cousin's wedding. She asked me via text message. I am scared for her.

silence is golden

MY WALLS ARE CAVING IN; nesting Situation out of control

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the resurgence

"I would agree... that we do a lot better treating anxiety (some forms, at least) as a kind of beckoning of the self to a self rather than as a symptom of illness." - I am getting to read Walker Percy again and finding my feelings the same. My brains are better this time, though. I am ten times smarter now than I was this time last year.

I am doing a lot of things lately that are scary. I have discovered a well. I am 'making an effort.' I am maybe on the brink of some external collapse but I don't care.

IT GETS VERY HARD TO GO TO SLEEP AFTER YOU STAY IN BED FOR 58 HOURS

shangri la

"Well I hear he's bad." "Hmm, he's good-bad, but he's not evil."

spambox poetry

I'LL STILL LOVE YOU, COME TO ME I'M IN A HOTEL!

Nourish male power.
She'll get sweaty when you enter the room because she has tested your amazing organ--Best manure for pork stalk
you are beautiful, because we care

Heat up coupling nights AND Percocet__Adderall
Up and down the heavens they go--and hardly knew what it meant.
Niederer

bakednutria- She wants your ideal loveing machine
I want to come to you from Russia, you do not mind?
Big self-esteem makes her crazy: Reach into her wet grotto.

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coon

You have been my first love? You loved her but now you are not together? "I'll help you forget this sadness!

do you know what i mean

they took it out i am glad but man oh man there has been so much crying around here lately

i am scraping it feels easy but sometimes my eggshells get a little obvious so i have to go to sleep for all day.

things i am sensitive about:

-eating

-alternating between siamesing every second and not siamesing any seconds

-people who extend themselves

-money

-everything